Life

I've been successfully on track for a month now, total loss of 11.8lbs! I'm really proud that I've been on track and haven't cut corners like I have for a long time now.

Each time that I start thinking of eating bad food, I remember the way it made me feel. Out of breath all the time, feeling weighed down, hating myself. A million more things come to mind, but I don't have enough room to type it all. =)

All my life, it's been about food. Whatever occasion that might be going on, I wonder what I'm going to eat. A night on the town - what restaurant will we go too? Family event with my favorite food, SCORE! My life has always been centered around food, bad food.

It's time to take a step back, think of other reasons to enjoy my time. Last weekend I went to my moms, I enjoyed conversations and time, not the food we ate(although the food was great). When I come home from work, I think about my evening and how I'm going to spend it, not about what all food I can consume.

Last night I sat by the fire pit and enjoyed looking at the stars. Sure, I had one s'more, only one. Normally I would be thinking of the s'more all day and wonder what else I could eat with it. I looked forward to just sitting and enjoying this autumn weather. Life is so much more than food.

Food is fuel for the body, some where along the way I must have forgotten. If you put the wrong gas in your car, it will not run correctly and ruin your car. Same thing with us!

Today I spent 4 hours cleaning the house(it really needed it). I believe the last spring cleaning was... never... Who says you can't have a fall cleaning?! I'm not known for blending in anyways. ;)

It's amazing, this new outlook on life. I feel as though I finally get it and I will not ever turn back. I must not cut corners like before, I must always remember where I was before I started.

One thing that always brings me down is focusing on how much more I need to go. This time around, I can't think of such things. I must focus on what I've accomplished. To remember how I felt a few weeks ago vs today, it's amazing. A few weeks ago, I hated life and myself and I swear I was sitting on the couch, waiting to die.

Now I'm out living life and I have great plans, thinking of the future - I feel like myself again. We only have one life and we never know when our last minute will be. It makes sense to grab every second and use it for good. We have enough negative in this life, the real chore comes from being positive.

We must be the change we wish to see in the world. I was taking for granted living life and enjoying the simple things. It all was clouded by what meal I could eat next, then the next meal. How much fast food I could order and eat til I could not simply eat another bite. I would eat until I couldn't move and barely breathe.

Life is amazing and we must wake up and live it. I'm glad I am and it's amazing!

Until next time!